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Thu, 10 Apr 2008 06:08:46 GMT

i'm feeling oddly dejected ever since break begun

it's probably because everyone is off to campus preview weekends or whatnot and i'm kinda just ... stuck here. it's really too bad i've already gone to wellesley - i wish off in boston running wild [haha yeah right] with stephy or something. but i'm kinda scared this is the start of my cold feet. gah.

i guess going to a women's college is more daunting than i imagined. and okay, it's probably because i already hate girls to begin with ... but with all lesbian jokes and "OMGOD ARE YOU SERIOUS?" i'm getting, i'm having this creepy-crawly unsure feeling in my guts again. [but really, to those people who are like "omgod are you serious?!" i just wanted to ask them, "OMGOD WHY WOULD I NOT BE SERIOUS?" it's just annoying. why would anyone ask someone that?!]

i suppose i should be thankful that i got in [no, i take that back. i'm REALLY thankful] and also for knowing victoria beforehand and having her want to room with me [yay!] but in reality, i'm still not 100% excited or convinced that Wellesley is it for me and - [i'm gonna stop here]

ugh

i think this whole whiny post is mostly about me being resentful that i'm not in boston right now.

haha.

ignore me.

i've come to a conclusion

Tue, 01 Apr 2008 04:13:13 GMT

wow it's been a gazillion years since i've posted

but now that i'm back, i kinda feel like i want to start posting again.

anyways, i failed today ... "lost the game" if you wil ... but came to the conclusion that what happened really was all for the best.

although i'm still a little confused by columbia decision, i guess in the end i was only arrogant and took too much for granted that it'll be almost a sure bet. it almost feels like columbia was mocking me for thinking that attending their summer program will help me along. either that, or i really suck.

but then after a relatively nice nap and my piano teacher being nice to me for the first time in 3 years, i decided that wellesley will probably be the best for me. i mean, i never worked as hard as all the friends who've been accepted to the ivies ... and to be truly honest, i would have been rather shocked if i was accepted. a lot of it was wishful thinking and i do think that i was a little arrogant to think i could get away with a little work and big rewards - i mean after all, we do reap what we sow ... i and really didn't sow all that much. man that sounded almost dirty lolzz.

but in any case, i guess i'm coming to peace with myself and the decision to go to wellesley. and kevin is right - college is what you make of it and i'm pretty sure i want this to be good :]

and hey, i get to hang around steph for another 4 years ... so i guess it's a good consolation prize :P haha jkay steph. in all honesty, i think the fact that i'm sticking with you actually ended up making me think of wellesley in a positive light ... like i said, we're destine to be best friends foreverrrrrrrrrr!! <3

so...

WELLESLEY CLASS OF 2012 !

college finally seems real.

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Thu, 26 Jul 2007 04:44:24 GMT

i love my birthdays :]

Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Wed, 04 Jul 2007 05:10:31 GMT

god i have so much to say but never enough time to sit down and write a decent post.

columbia has been amazinggggg. i'm so glad i came! and now i'm 90% sure this is where i want to spend my 4 years of college. i love new york city [even if going out after dark still scares me ... except for midnight ice cream runs] !!! i wish a lot of you were with me though ... i truly, truly miss you guys.

i promise i'll update everything soon!

p.s. facebook has pictures :]

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 04:56:18 GMT

i saw this quote somewhere today. i thought i'd share:

"i listen to other people's problems so i wouldn't have to face my own."

Saturday, June 09, 2007

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 20:53:33 GMT

i think i have found my cure for all bad days and icky illnesses:
a tubful of ben & jerry's magic brownies and grey's anatomy
ahhhhhh

p.s.
okay michelle
just because i love you ... here is the link!
:]

PROM 'o7

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 01:06:56 GMT

prom was ....

AMAZING.

allen was the perfect date. and i have the perfect friends. and everything was perfect perfect perfect.

everything, that is, except the "hell in size 7.5" (aka my heels. omgod.)

i think i have post prom depression now :|

p.s. if you want pictures, you'll have to go on facebook. too lazy to post any up here.

p.p.s. i might consider if you beg me. haha.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Wed, 23 May 2007 02:42:09 GMT

this week has been so random/shocking/amazing.

and it's only tuesday.

haha.

so basically. allen asked me to go to whs prom. i was so shocked i asked if he was sure he wanted to ask me. haha. poor guy.

but now ...

i have no dress. no shoes. and no idea how i'm gonna be able to concentrate on my SAT 2's. oh brother.

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Wed, 09 May 2007 22:19:33 GMT

ap stat just about killed me.

i finally found out why i hate math so much
it's because all my math teachers in the past have traumatized me.

Monday, April 30, 2007

Mon, 30 Apr 2007 20:11:59 GMT

bye bye virginia!

oh, thank god.

but now the real hell starts ... x_x

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edit//:

collegeboard is the root of all evil, as ~~is AP Stat~~ are all math classes in general.

kassarjian is determined to kill my gpa.

goodbye, farewell, columbia!